What are you calling in for 2020?
For the past six years, come December I have picked a word for my year ahead that has tremendously helped me set the intention for the upcoming year and the experiences I had. Little did I know December 2014 when I chose the word EPIC, how epic my 2015 was going to be and that I would not only meet my Twin Flame in real life after 1,5 years of loving each other from a distance – but that we would even end up sleeping in each other’s arms. That was pretty epic.
Especially considering when I chose that word, my twin was running, not talking to me, ignoring my texts and calls and banging another girl. Now don’t get me wrong, this is not some magic spell that allows you to bend reality in your favor. I had no preconceived outcomes when I chose the word EPIC, I was open to the Universe making my 2015 epic anyway it wanted. And boy did the Universe deliver, my twin came back to me that year and confirmed how much he felt for me as well. He kept coming closer and closer that year, until he heard I was coming to India and he refused to talk to me for 3 months. By the time we met face to face, NOT being together wasn’t an option anymore despite the fact that if his family found out – all hell would break loose as he was being pressured into an arranged marriage at that time.
After having gone through the ritual of choosing a Word of the Year already six times, I can say that the results are pretty impressive although you really can’t make things happen that aren’t meant to be. For example 2016 was my year of LOVE and that was all about self-love not Twin Flame love, in fact my twin slammed the door shut in my face that year claiming he didn’t love me the way I thought he did…..
For 2017 my word was MIRACULOUS, at the beginning of that year my twin got married out of the blue with a girl his family picked out for him. I called him in April when I had this immense strong urge to reach out and it later turned out to be his 3 month wedding anniversary. He picked up the phone and it was pretty miraculous that he told me on that call that he didn’t know if he would ever leave his wife but that if he did, he promised me that he would be on a plane the very next day to come to me. He had been pretty clear in that call that he was not happy with his wife and he wanted me to know that what he had told me in India was still true, if it was up to him alone, he would already be together with me.
By the end of 2018 I grounded my soul in my physical body, on the exact same day that my twin’s son was born. He had come into my dreams six months before to tell me he was going to be a father. I spoke to him on Facebook messenger, the next day in which he confirmed the pregnancy but he also asked me a question that he had wanted to ask me for some time. He asked me ‘How is it possible that my third eye is opening when I don’t pray or meditate?‘ After first rejecting my general answer, I told him that it was because he was energetically connected to me and that I had done massive inner work since he and I last saw each other. His immediate reaction was ‘I knew it had something to do with you!‘ As I was stepping into my own bliss, he was being pulled into his bliss as well which was of course my 2018 Word of the Year – BLISS.
So no, it doesn’t miraculously remove the unexpected twists and turns from your journey. We simply have to go through the soul experiences that are part of our soul’s plan for this lifetime. But, we can color in HOW we go through those experiences and choosing a Word of the Year does exactly that, it becomes the shade through which you filter in your experience. It allows you to give your personal intention to what is to come and although it may not override certain events that are destined to be, it sure as hell can change how you experience them.
Provided of course that you don’t use this as just another means to force your will on reality. Choosing the word UNION will not miraculously get your twin to drop on his knee and propose to you, that isn’t true union anyway. You could choose the word union of course, but if the time isn’t right yet, all it will do is bring to your attention all the inner blocks inside of you that are keeping you out of union. As you can see in my six year overview below, I never chose the word union – I came into inner union under the words BLISS and SIMPLICITY. I think unless I am together with my Divine counterpart I wouldn’t choose the word union, period.
The more your ego is choosing the Word of the Year for you, the less it will work. Really make an effort to get out of your own way, so that your soul can whisper in your ear.
My 6 previous ‘Word of the Year’ words
Let me share my list of previous annual WOTYs that I have chosen over the past six years:
- 2014 – EASY
- 2015 – EPIC
- 2016 – LOVE
- 2017 – MIRACULOUS
- 2018 – BLISS
- 2019 – SIMPLICITY (ALIGNMENT)
Click here to read my 2014 to 2018 overview of experiences using Word of the Year, which (spoiler alert) includes a screenshot of the most adorable email my twin sent me in 2015.
To keep this article relatively short, I will only share what my 2019 WOTY brought me. My word for 2019 was SIMPLICITY and that accurately describes how my year has unfolded. In all ways have I been going back to the basics and rebuilding strong foundations.
I released so much excess vibrational baggage over 2019. The worst purging came AFTER I had grounded my soul into my physical body. As the merging process or inner union with my soul deepened, it permeated the deepest gunk and sludge held on a cellular level. While on the one hand life has never been this easy, at the same time it’s the most difficult time ever as I am confronted with the deepest pain trapped inside of me – from my soul’s journey throughout time and space. This has been a physically painful process as well.
On a physical level I have also done a complete overhaul. I drastically cleaned up my food, spent a small fortune on medical tests to see what needed to be done. I did a long series of colonics, a parasite detox, a candida cleanse and found out that I was allergic to lactose and eggs which I have cut out of my diet. I also started working with a personal trainer that has really allowed me to increase my strength and stamina. Through the nature of my work I don’t get a lot of body movement, so I really wanted to get fit and strong again.
During a short stay in my mother’s house I decided to renovate it because she had never really properly moved in there, so I got the house functional for her and us when we would visit. To give you an idea, she had a shower that was only functioning because I ‘fixed’ it with a rubber band. So instead I ordered a rain shower and had her Brazilian cleaner install it. Gustavo is super gay and we love him for it, but he became our handy man who installed the shower, built tables, closets, cupboards and beds from mail order packages and painted the living room and kitchen. By the time he was done he had learned a ton of skills and his family started joking that we made him into a man. The only thing missing according to them was him showing up with a girlfriend, trust me that will never happen and his family knows it.
Speaking of which I had a boyfriend for about six weeks in Dubai. 2019 started out with my twin ‘f*cking up‘ badly. He send me this raunchy text when I was in India, five days after his son was born and then told me his friends sent it – which only made things worse. Him sending me raunchy texts was bad enough, but if it was his so called friends saying things like that – that was completely unacceptable. Especially because his wife was still bleeding from having his child, she didn’t need this kind of stress in such a vulnerable and precious time.
To me this was the final straw and after being celibate for five years I slept with an old friend who lives in Dubai and surprise, surprise doing so helped me release past life trauma that was related to a process my twin and I currently were going through. My friend had already years ago begged me to give him a chance if my twin wasn’t going to step up, but although I love him and we have a strong chemistry – we are not each others equal, which made this a relationship disaster just waiting to happen. Not to mention that this guy was even younger than my twin and the age difference between my twin and I is already big enough.
By the time I came back from Dubai it was time to simplify my message, my mission and my business. Over the summer of 2019, I had to completely rebuild the foundation of my business. We re-branded everything and I rewrote everything from the free manuscript that you can download on the website, to our products and services and the 14 modules of the Inner Union Soul Alchemy program that is part of the Twin Flame Tribe membership.
I am actually still in the process of updating the modules at this moment as I describe in detail the inner union process that I have gone through in the time-period of 2018 to now. This also made me realize how different my teachings are from other so-called Twin Flame teachers, all of a sudden I saw how all the other providers in this industry are selling people what they want, but not necessarily what they need. They are peddling Twin Flame union, because it sells. It appeals to the deepest pain all Twin Flames experience, but it simply isn’t the highest outcome of this journey. Inner union with your soul is what it is all about and Twin Flame union is nothing but the outer reflection of the union found within. It took me 2,5 years to come into inner union once I figured it out, my students using the blueprint I created for them, are getting to this stage much quicker because they know what to do! I have spelled it out for them step by step in my Inner Union Soul Alchemy program (join the Tribe here to get access to the program).
Which brings me back to my twin, this year has been the year of the least contact in 3D ever, in almost six years of knowing each other (we met April 2014). After his faux pas at the beginning of this year, he hasn’t spoken to me but has continued to read what I have had to say even when what I had to say was tough to swallow. He never blocked me or got angry with me, nor did I give him reason to be. It’s more that I disengaged and that led to him showing up in my dreams a lot more this year giving me updates on where he was at regarding us and regarding his marriage. In the last dream I had, he told me he was giving his marriage one last try, by now he has removed his marital status off of Facebook. Time will only tell how this will play out in our reality.
But one thing I do know for sure and that is that for the first time in the close to six years that I know my Twin Flame, I am ready for a 5D Divine partnership and union. 2019 has really been a year of stripping old 3D programming to the core, programming that would otherwise interfere with a 5D union. I especially released a lot of my survival and protection patterns (fear-based conditioning), which culminated in this last month of the year – in healing a deep soul wound that my Twin Flame was mirroring me through his marriage. This is something I will write about after the holidays. From the beginning of his marriage I have understood that it was a blessing in disguise, but now I understand how this arranged marriage was to help us both heal utter deep soul wounds. Wounds I didn’t even know where there.
My journey has been tough, but it is only now that I am understanding how incredibly tough my twin’s journey has been as well, as he had to play out this deep soul trauma in the physical in order to heal it. Over the course of his close to three years marriage, his eyes have gotten a dead look in them that wasn’t there before. Although it seems that he moved on with his life and has this happy little family, the truth is that he has been to hell and back too but in a different way. I have no idea if he and I will ever end up together (expectation is the mother of disappointment), but what I do know is that I understand why we had to meet, why we needed to go through this process and why we couldn’t have been together before this, even if we had wanted too. There was such a deep conflict inside of us of responsibility versus love or head versus heart and that stemmed all the way back to a lifetime together in Egypt, thousands and thousands of years ago. It was like an ancient curse that had to be broken. Of course it wasn’t a curse, it was a deep subconscious pattern, but it took all these years of digging deep to uncover it.
Which brings us to this moment in time….
My 2020 Word of the Year
For 2020 I have chosen the words NEXT LEVEL and I have already gotten confirmation of how accurate this choice is. I recently had a chakra reading with one of the healers I work with and she saw this massive rebirth for me around January 13th 2020 (Yes, that is the day after the saturn-pluto conjuction that Twin Flame astrologer Lilliana Letic wrote about). The healer saw that 2020 was going to be all about taking things to the SOUL LEVEL which is the next level in my case.
After a year of laying strong foundations in 2019, really building everything from the ground up again – taking things to the NEXT LEVEL only makes sense. Taking my mission to the next level, now that I am so uber clear on what my message is exactly and how different this message is from others in this industry, I am ready to take this message to the masses. There is so much misinformation out there about the Twin Flame journey and so many teachers and healers are in on it for less than noble reasons. It’s time that the truth starts dominating in the Twin Flame collective, instead of all these half truths and quick fixes that don’t work. It’s game time, we don’t have time to be running around in circles chasing our tales (Twin Flame union) anymore, which has been true for the Twin Flame collective for the past couple of decades. Even those Twin Flame teachers claiming to be in ‘union’ are lying, some flat out and others believe their own lies when they mistake a physical relationship for true union. Some of my clients have gotten married to their Twin Flame relatively quickly, but a marriage does not equate Twin Flame union and should also not be referred to as such because it confuses people. The Twin Flame journey is so much more than coming into a romantic relationship.
That being said 2020 is going to be the start of a decade in which the first true Twin Flame unions will take place between couples who have done the inner work and who can really bring in new relationship templates. Something that simply isn’t possible until you have fully unplugged from the 3D matrix (removed all fear-based programming). Those who have really done their inner soul work (not for the sake of getting back with the twin, but without an agenda) these people will be ready for a new beginning that is now opening up to them. If it is meant to be, this will also apply for me and my twin but I don’t NEED it to happen like I did in the past. I’m cool with whatever my soul cooks up for me, because through this Twin Flame process I have learned to trust my soul in-explicitly.
Which is also exactly what has opened up this NEXT LEVEL or SOUL LEVEL for me, learning to trust myself, my higher self (soul), my twin and the Divine. Just like my 2015 EPIC I am not going to put much expectation on how my 2020 WOTY is going to play out in my life. I am just going to be open and allow the Universe to surprise me. Come back December 2020 to read how it went. Seriously do, let’s make it a date.
How to choose your own Word of the Year
I hope that sharing my experience with choosing a Word of the Year, inspires you to choose one of your own. To be honest I don’t actually pick my words, the words pick me. All I do is open up to receive them. I don’t think ‘oh what do I want my next year to look like?’ and then waste a multitude of brain cells pondering this question. That’s how I started out, but these days I just ask what word needs to be my companion in the upcoming year and then I wait for it to present itself. Somehow, some way the word simply introduces itself and I get the intuitive hit that this is indeed my WOTY for the year to come.
I suggest you try it exactly like that and not use 3D rational thinking to try and manipulate, maneuver, coerce or force what you think SHOULD happen on your reality. It’s really not about what your ego wants, we know what he or she wants – it’s clear. We want to infuse your year to come with your deepest soul desire, because this is in the end WHO you really are. You are not your ego. You are not your personality. You are an old soul that chose the human experience as part of your evolution process and you called your Twin Flame into your life in this lifetime because you wanted to wake up to this truth and so does your twin.
All the unexpected twists and turns, the sudden plot twists are needed as initiations in your and your Twin Flames awakenings-process. Relax, trust me – All is well. It is safe to trust the process.
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Sending you love and light on your Ascension path and Divine partnership journey, you are forever protected and guided. All is well.
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Lots of love,